What can I say...
(my) Life sucks around this time. I'm trying to finish this year in the most regular way but I haven't been able to pass through it without making stupid mistakes, being judged and putting in risk my job.
I've made some wonderful new friends. I've learnt lots of skills... experienced great moments and attended many parties. Still, there's this constant, gigantic cloud over my head that never leaves me alone.
Right now I feel lonely, misunderstood, under presure... feel like I want to quit on everything, take a bag full of dreams and go to fuckin' nowhere.
The vocational crisis is deep. I never thought I would have to deal with such kids and parents... like, it is hard to comfront the reality that children are not as well behaved as I was... and that parents are not always as awesome as mine... so I'm not used to them. Right now some kidos have turn my nights into a sea of nightmares, just because of a fuckin' contest that they won but haven't received the price they deserved
I want to take a moment to visit some friends... the only two of them who are able to listen and understand what I am going through. They are all busy these days, so do I. This friday off I was going to travel to Conce to meet my fab guy, best friend who always makes me cry out of laugh, but he was too busy with university bullshit.
I feel encapsulated in a life I didn't want to... it's like a punishment I voluntarily took, for no reason. I wish I could be able to break the chains and go wherever I want to, and stay calm by myself.
I don't like my job, I'm not feeling fulfilled with my relationship, I don't have enough friends and I'd like to live more adventures than I can.
I wish someone just takes care of me, pull me tight and take me somewhere to start all over again.
I wish I could escape.
